Whatev

Here I am again sitting here contemplating life and such. Here I am again wondering how other mothers can begin to fathom how completely devastating and debilitating losing a child is. I have a hard time understanding how any woman that has had a child can't seem to get it just a little, but especially a mother of a baby right now. This is a horrific and lonely place to be. Especially for the second time. Terribly lonely. I will never understand. Never never never. Will never get how those that used to be a part of my life just don't give a crap. They have their kids......their baby. Whatev.