Not The News I Wanted

I had a procedure done on Wednesday called a hysterosalpingogram. This is and xray exam done by a radiologist where he injects dye into my cervix to the uterine cavity. This was done to see if my fallopian tubes were open. If they are open the dye flows into the tubes and spills out into the abdominal cavity. Well, I found out a couple of things. First I have what is called a bicornuate (heartshaped) uterus. The doctor thought that by the way half of my uterus looked, because it is split in two, that only one of my fallopian tubes probably every has been functional. The tube that was open and allowed me to get pregnant is now totally closed because of scar tissue and adhesions, probably from my csections. So, basically the doctor told me that I should be very thankful to have the two children that I did have and that they were miracles. The heartshaped uterus really doesn't affect most women from getting pregnant, but lots of them end up going into preterm labor, having miscarriages or having breach babies because the baby is growing on one side and there is not enough room for them to grow there. Avery was a breach baby, therefore I had a csection. Anyway, I was pretty devastated when I found this out and have been a bit down the last couple of days. I also feel that I would be so ungrateful to my Heavenly Father to not be so thankful to have been able to have the two sweet daughters that we have been blessed to have. As I got dressed after the procedure, I kept thinking of a dear friend I have who is unable to have children and what heartache she has. Her only sister has been blessed with four kids and I'm sure the whole infertility process has been devastating. My heart goes out to her. I am trying to understand and accept these new circumstances and be thankful for my little family.