A New Attitude

I havent written or updated my blog in such a long time and the thought of doing so, made me so sad. For those of you dont know, we lost our precious Tess Alexandra to SIDS when she was 10 weeks old. The 21st will mark 4 months that she has been gone. The last four months have been a total blur. I have been on a total roller coaster of emotions and most of the dips have been pretty low. I will think that I am feeling really good and then something will happen or maybe nothin at all and I will be right back down in the dumps again. I guess that is what loss, grief and sorrow are all about. I miss my precious baby so much each day, but am so thankful for my Avery and Scarlett who help me get out of the bed and carry on. I was reading a friends blog today and loved this quote that she had posted from one of our beloved prophets.
"I remind you....regardless of your present age, you are building your life;...it can be full of joy and happiness, or it can be full of misery. It all depends upon you and your attitudes... for your altitude, or the height you climb, is dependent upon your attitude or your response to situations."

- Spencer W. Kimball
Starting right this second I am making a commitment to give thanks to my Heavenly Father for at least one thing that I have been blessed or am currently blessed with everyday. I will not let my daughter's death be the emotional and spiritual death of me. She and my other two don't deserve that. I still want to be the crazy, goofy, strong and talented woman that I know I am. Starting today I have a new attitude!!!!