I feel that SAME way...I was talking to my doctor at Teague's 6 month check up saying that he may be my 6th baby BUT I feel like I have NO idea what I am doing - I don't trust myself and what I thought I was doing as a mother (even though my first 4 kids are fine).
Flashbacks are the worse - whenever my baby is sleeping he looks dead to me now - my children even comment all the time when they check on him they'll say he's okay he's not cold :(
Do you think it has gotten easier as Saylor gets older? For me...it has in some ways but I am just sad all the time because he is older than his big brother and doing things that I never got to see Beckett do.
It's a constant battle for me also because I hate how everyone isn't here with me.
I think about you all the time and baby Tess...I know your pain, I hate that you feel this way. If you ever want to talk, please call!!
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I feel that SAME way...I was talking to my doctor at Teague's 6 month check up saying that he may be my 6th baby BUT I feel like I have NO idea what I am doing - I don't trust myself and what I thought I was doing as a mother (even though my first 4 kids are fine).
Flashbacks are the worse - whenever my baby is sleeping he looks dead to me now - my children even comment all the time when they check on him they'll say he's okay he's not cold :(
Do you think it has gotten easier as Saylor gets older? For me...it has in some ways but I am just sad all the time because he is older than his big brother and doing things that I never got to see Beckett do.
It's a constant battle for me also because I hate how everyone isn't here with me.
I think about you all the time and baby Tess...I know your pain, I hate that you feel this way. If you ever want to talk, please call!!
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